My Tinnitus Goal
Sounds weird? What other goal is there than to wish for your tinnitus to go away?
Of course in the beginning that was my goal . . . my only goal. I did something for it constantly, I spent all my salary on it and it still didn´t take my anywhere than more suffering.
If you concentrate on something it becomes more, so the more I concentrated on my suffering the more I suffered. I felt like there was no end I just wanted it to stop, to disapear.
I mean I´m not loving my tinnitus and we are still not friends, but we are friendly. I am not fighting it anymore, I try to live with it…try to make peace with it to have a good and peaceful life.
In order to reach that I set myself some goals:
To be able to live with it
Daily I´m working on methods helping me to make live with tinnitus easier. I try to reduce my stress, or relief my stress level by exercising, doing yoga and meditating.
Using ear protection when I go out, to be able to go out and adjusting my diet to a tinnitus friendly diet.
Feel good about myself
I have brought myself down a lot since I got tinnitus, I hated my body for doing that to me and for putting me in that position. So I am taking action to feel better about myself again, through affirmations and also exercise helps.
Find inner peace
One of my main goals, is to find inner peace. All my life I have been restless, looking for somthing without knowing what I´m looking for and never had inner peace. I think this is a key transformation that will not only be helpful for my tinnitus but for my entire life. I am working on it through meditation, reading books on the topic and doing yoga.
Accept my life and make the best of it
Selfacceptance is not easy, it is even more difficult if you have a chronic condition. I am working on that through reading books on the topic, mirror work and meditation.
Find my true inner self
I guess this might be my overall goal. The goals 1-4 lead up to this one. I have wanted to discover my true desires and what I am really like behind all those protecting walls, all those learned reactions and layers of emotions. Who am I really? A weird question, but I think this is what I have been looking for.
Meditation and yoga promise to help with that and also reading books on how to discover your true self.
When did I get so spiritual?
As I´m writing this I´m thinking, wow never ever would I have thought saying these things one day. I´m not a spiritual person, but my tinnitus took me on that path, so I think this is exaclty where I need to be and I´m supposed to follow down this road.
I´m convinced that there is a reason that I´m on that path right now and without my tinnitus I would not be on it. I believe I got it for a reason and that reason might just be selfdiscovery – to find my true inner self, to finally come to peace.
Lousie Hay said that our bodys produce illnesses in order to show us an imbalance or what we need to work on. Causes of symptoms according to Louise Hay is a good place to start if you are looking for healing. Illness however mild or severe is an indicator of your emotional state, caused by your thoughts and focus.
Tinnitus or Ringing in the Ears: Refusal to listen. Not hearing the inner voice. Stubbornness.
I think for me it is not hearing the inner voice and yeah…I might just be a little tiny bit stubborn. The thing is up until now I have not heard what my inner voice is trying to tell me, or am I just overruling it all the time with my head?
So that is why my goals are important…to finally get there!!